I’m Baptist, but during my young life I knew there was someone up there that sort of took care of people. My father didn’t go to church. My mother was United Brethren and I’m sure she taught me a lot of things.

I was the first girl, and all during raising my children it just seemed like somebody was always there. I just felt like I never was alone. So, when I started to go to church this just landed right in with that and then my faith got stronger.

He was taking care of me no matter what happened, because I had natural births until the last one. He weighed 11 pounds 6 oz and they told me he was just too big. He was injured when he was being born I guess and he was a beautiful boy. He was another boy.

It really bothered me. It bothered me so much that I felt like suicide one time going to work. I thought…I couldn’t understand why he was taken. I was like this…and, I just couldn’t understand. I thought there was a tree, like our road is coming up here like this, and there was a big tree right there just at the edge of the creek and I thought, if I go real fast, now I gotta do this right, go real fast, as fast as I can go down my road, and if I hit that for sure, I’m sure it will kill me. But, before I got there I thought, well what if you don’t? You’ll just be injured and you can’t take care of your family! So I turned and went on to work and that was the end of the suicide problem.

I was sad because I lost that baby.

See, I was so big. I could lie down and roll as well as I could walk. I couldn’t help him with the milking because I couldn’t sit down by the side of a cow, and I thought, I have always had natural births, so why does this have to be different?

I didn’t feel like I was pregnant. Only for the first one was I sick to the stomach, the rest I just kept getting bigger and bigger, and so I just couldn’t understand that the last one had to die. That was the big problem. I don’t know to this day what it was caused by. I was supposed to take care of seven kids, not eight. So, although it would have been another boy, it still had to be that way.